I'm Baaaaack! (For Now).

Hi there,

You'll be pleased to know that I'm coming to you now, fresh off an attitude adjustment.  That's right--I am no longer in the dumps.  Nothing has changed about my circumstances.  All the crap that was dragging me down is still there.  But after having a complete breakdown last night (and the puffy eyes today to prove it), I've realized some stuff.

I've been too busy focusing on how awful things are to see or enjoy what I have.  I find that most of my worst times are less a crisis of circumstances and more a crisis of focusing on all the wrong things.  Here are just a couple of examples:

I've been so focused on how much it sucks that my Mom has cancer that I haven't had time to be thankful that I can still call her, see her, talk to her as much as I want to.  I've been so upset that my cat is going to have three legs and that I am going to have to watch her suffer that I haven't had time to be thankful that she WON'T have cancer anymore, and that she'll still be my kitty.

It's a matter of perspective, I think....and it's all a part of the processes we go through as humans.  We struggle and struggle and struggle against our circumstances; whether we're trying actively to change things we cannot change, or we're devoting all our energy to fervently wishing things were different.  Sometimes it's so hard to simply accept what we have TODAY and start looking up and being thankful for those things.

I don't want to keep struggling against my circumstances and focusing on all the wrong things.  Today, I went to my niece's first birthday party.  It was such a great day, just watching her opening presents and discovering new toys, and, especially, seeing her first reaction to BIRTHDAY CAKE!

 

Not only that, but my Mom was there, looking super cute and feeling at least a little bit better than she has most of the week.

Tonight, Husband and I randomly went into Home Goods (looking for pillows) and came out with a fuzzy kitty bed that we hoped Jo would enjoy during her recovery.

I do believe we nailed this one.  She's still happily snoozing in this bed as I type.

So, when I really think about it...I have so much to be thankful for.  So many blessings.  And more than enough to get me through today.  And today, that's all I need.


Hugs,
S